Love swaysBubbles up fromAn unknown sourceInvited me into a Gigantic hugWarm and wetTears flowedThe river keeps flowingThis river is strongLove is flowing to meAround me, by my sideAt every angleStraight through meAnd in meI flow as loveOpeningSubtly or wildlyOpening.
"Reshape yourself through the power of your will; never let yourself be degraded by self-will. The will is the only friend of the Self, and the will is the only enemy of the Self."The Bhagavad Gita I love this verse of the Bhagavad Gita because it gets me thinking about why I go after the … Continue reading Bhagavad Gita- Willpower
Years ago I worked at a daycare in the toddler room. I put a lot of energy into it.First thing in the morning I'd get the kids dancing & jumping to a record or playing Simon Says. But my weakness was a little 2 year old girl named Adiena. I knew we weren't supposed to … Continue reading The Divine or Chocolate?
“Wherever the mind wanders, restless and diffuse in its search for satisfaction without, lead it within; train it to rest in the Self.”The Bhagavad Gita (26) I decided it would be wise to break away from social media for a few weeks and start turning my phone off more often. So far my phone has … Continue reading Phone Off, Social Media Gone
Asheville...driving in the car windows rolled down, breeze blowing, radio off. Mountain air. Energy. Pulsating. Blue sky. Clear mind. No-thought. No time. Boundless. Centered. Just the moment. Chanting. This was one of my earliest experiences of bhakti yoga- each month I'd immerse myself in 3 days of group chanting to my teacher’s guitar sing along … Continue reading Chanting & Altered States
When I was a teenager I survived an intense 3 day LSD trip which was more like an insomniac blur...it involved a spontaneous 14 hour drive to the east coast, parading nude in the streets, quitting my lifeguard job, and sadly at the end of it thinking I was a video game character. Such are … Continue reading My First Santsang (aka Sedona Meltdown)
I used to be very hard on myself with meditation. I put myself through a 10 day silent vipassana retreat, would set my timer for 2 hours a day and suppress my imagination entirely to just sit there hyper-focused on the breath and bodily sensations. I considered meditations that included visuals & sounds to be … Continue reading 18 Ways to do Japa Meditation
This morning I received a message on social media from a man warning me that several of his friends had 'OD-d' on kirtan & that I needed to be careful and stay balanced. Although it caught me off guard (I'm pretty confident I'm grounded with this devotional stuff) the urgent tone of his message got … Continue reading Can You OD on Kirtan?
A few days ago while on a job interview my I looked down & noticed my thumb shaking. In the past this would have spiraled me into more anxiety. But this time I had a relaxation tool- japa meditation (silent repetition of a mantra). Quietly to myself I repeated my mantra and I watched in … Continue reading 4 Beautiful Reasons To Fall in Love With Chanting
My first night in Mudhuban, India a deep emotion struck me. As everyone entered the room & gathered for kirtan, some people in the group sat far off to the left and a few others together to the right but no one had chosen to sit next to me. It was a familiar theme. Space. … Continue reading Meeting My Inner Parvati